But how do I do that?
I decided to clean out my blog. I deleted almost half of all my posts since day one! I laughed and cringed at the same time as I was trying to read and filter my old posts. I was young, I didn’t even care if what I was posting was crap. I didn’t even realize that I haven’t posted here for almost a year.
Upon seeing this post, I realized that some things may have changed: new country, married life, etc., but one thing I know is certain: I still don’t know where my life is heading to. Four years have passed and I am still clueless, I think I’m even more scared to face things now than before.
It may seem like I have accomplished a lot because I work abroad. That’s not the case. Sometimes, I just have to give way to other people’s plans, dreams and happiness. I still want to do things, and they are still the same things I wanted to do four years ago and more. But I gotta do what I gotta do. Be an adult. By that, I meant the stereotypical adult person that the society needs us to be: to work for the future, for the family.
I think I can do both. Be an adult and still do what I want. Maybe I just don’t know how to start. Hopefully I get the push that I need soon.
But for now, I’ll do it slowly. It would take a lot of time, but I promise… things will happen as I wanted.